Idle Mind

Lately, I have not been applying myself to anything. Many times in the past few months, I have felt strongly about various issues, but never committed myself to writing about it. There are a few reasons for this. Sometimes, after the moment passes, I convince myself that my thoughts about a matter aren't worth writing about. At times, I worry I might offend someone with what I write. I am aware that I am still naive about much of the world, and fear my childish take on things will invite wrath upon me; even now, I sometimes feel like deleting old posts. Then there is, of course, laziness, pure and simple.

I feel calmer now compared to a few years back, and have felt like I'm calming down gradually for a while. I do know I have been irritable and grating to be around, and have said many irresponsible things and done many irresponsible things. I can never take back what I have said or what I've done, I know. I can only say sorry (but as they say, 'sorry no cure'). The best I can do is ask that if I ever say something downright insulting/irresponsible/etc. in the future, slap me and let me know (if violence appeases you).

Of course, I hope people understand that I don't mean to say Slap Me literally.